In a gentle way, you can shake the world - Gandi

Monday, January 31, 2011

Day Six: Happy Pills

On the upside, I didn't have a headache today but am still having the typical high, which I will be very happy to move past so I hope it subsides with time.

I felt little freak-outs coming on at various parts of my afternoon but they were quickly and quietly moderated by the meds.

Typically, these little freak-outs might have escalated and moved beyond my control or quicker than my control (because I know it's all within my control). But this time, I felt the surge, rode the crest of the crazy wave and then rested back into evenness.

It was good.

A relief.

Because it's about time - about time that I can feel an emotion without succumbing to the wrath of it.

Perhaps with enough consistency my body and mind will learn a new way of being and the pills will no longer be necessary.

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