Happy Mother's Day

I was leaving dinner with my family this evening and felt such contentment - contentment I have not felt in such a long time. The fog has lifted from her - all the residual, emotional muck left behind in her wake. The contrast between life with her and life without her is telling and informs how I want to go forward in this world...for this life.

Distance can make the heart grow fonder for sure but distance can also make the heart grow up, heal, want for more - long for better. This is what our distance has done for me - I have grown up, healed, seen more and cultivated better. As a matter of fact, my orbit is like an exclusive club anymore...ID check at the door: "Are you better?", "Yes.", "Then welcome, c'mon in..." But if "no" - "Sorry - we have rules here. You'll have to find another place to land."

Back to my original story - as I walked out of the restaurant, I was holding my niece and as we walked to the car, we were taking in the sky and the trees...and I saw them.

For the first time in about a year - I saw it all.

I was relieved to see again - to sit in the moment, still and free of the need to change a thing. And it occurred to me that not only was I seeing the trees and the sky - I had seen the faces of my family members, I had appreciated them, I had laughed with them and held sacredly the moments of laughter and love we shared as we all sat around the table having dinner and catching up.

Happy Mother's Day - I am free. There is a different sort of birthing going on...