I have come off the meds - thus the interruption in my daily tracking.
I don't know - my partner and I still fought and I still got stressed by the little nuances of life. I decided, 'why the hell not feel it?'
And feel with the same intensity I always have, feel with the intensity I know and recognize and embrace - it is my color.
I was talking with my daughter last night and she is starting to recognize her own intensity, recognizing especially how uncomfortable it makes her because she feels so different.
I explained to her that we, she and I, will always experience the world in a way that would bring other people to their knees - the beauty will inspire awe and stop us where we stand just as the dark will shadow all hope and paralyze even the breath that moves us.
This is what I know - if I'm going to be an effective therapist, I must be willing to explore my own mind, assess my own life and delve into the self-work that it takes to be self-actualized.
May I never turn away.
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