So before I get to excavating myself, I have bit more work to do.
My partner of over a year left me for the last time almost two weeks ago. I say for the last time because I will NOT go back, I will not look back and I will not waver in my forward movement.
She had a lot going on mentally that I think she will fail to face for many more years to come but I cannot save her and I certainly cannot convince her that she might need to do some inner work - not only is that hard to hear from anyone, it's super hard to hear from someone you love.
Besides, she would never have heard me - she needed to believe it was all me and will probably move on from here with that as her bulwark.
So I move forward and when my mind wants to drift back to her, I re-route. Forward thinking, I say to myself and it's become my little way of retraining my mind. I know the power of the mind and I am using it to my benefit.
For now...I focus on me, my children, my friends, family, school and work.
The fog will lift and I will rise.
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